So lately I've been thinking a lot on my dreams as a teenager and what I wanted to be when I grew up. Starting back when I was a teenager, I had the dream of becoming an actor. I spent years in acting lessons, was in the school plays and musicals, and competed in drama competitions, however, I my dream ended up being crushed by those close to me who constantly told me I wasn't talented enough to become a professional actor, and encouraged me to give up the dream, which I eventually did.
A few years later, after coming out, I came to realize that I was attractive enough to pursue modeling. I went to various modeling agencies in the city, and kept running into the same response. They thought I was attractive enough to model, but I was too short to do what I really wanted, which was to model runway. I spent a few years after that working with local photographers acting as a model for their art projects, but stopped doing so when I moved away for school.
I bring these stories up, because I came to realize that now as a porn actor, I am living both the dream of acting and modeling, but simply not as I had planned on doing so.
I find it interesting that so many times in life, we get what we want, but not always they way we intended. Does this mean that the ultimate end of getting what we want means less this way? I think not, I'm probably happier now acting and modeling in porn than I would have been trying to get on Broadway or trying to get onto the runway during fashion week. I feel fortunate to have found a way to live out my dreams, and not just live them out, but do so without the voices of those from my past telling me that I can't do it. Instead I am met with support both inside and outside the industry by those telling me that they like my work and think I do well in it.
All that said, I want to thank you for all the support you as my fans have provided me during my time in the industry, and hope I can continue to produce work that continues to be better than that which I had made before, and keep you all entertained.
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